See you later...

So, this is not a goodbye...

I made this update for you to know that I am willing to wait until the day we finally meet again. The title explains itself; SEE YOU LATER. I'm not good at saying "Goodbyes" because this type of goodbye for me is very much painful, though I know this will help you  grow as a great man; a person who will be braver.

Whaaa... this is harder than I expected. I thought I can do this as brave as you are fighting back those sadness. I know I don't have to cry, I know it's not necessary to be sad because what you will be doing is for your own good. <sigh> I can't pretend at all when it comes to you. If it were of some members, this would be easy, though it will also be sad, but still it is you who are involved here.

I love you very much that I have to divert my attention to other members because I want to be just perfectly fine when you are gone. I don't want to be a burden for you, because if I will still be missing you, which are not a good way of letting you go for a while. I have to adjust even just until you finally be out again. If I will not do that I might get depress and all. I want to continue as well as you were doing your best in those times that you will not be in our side.

If times get harder don't forget that we are also fighting for you, praying for your health and for your success. We are also fighting for ourselves and remind us that "this too shall pass", trying to be strong and live each day with a smile while thinking of how many days are left to be reunited with you again. We know that someday, we will see a better you and all those sadness that we felt when you were gone will be vanish because it all paid off.

I know this post is just dramatic and full of loneliness, but you can't blame me. <smile>

Only a fangirl will understand a fangirl's heart; true.

Today I am writing not because I am a fangirl, part of me is writing as me. That feeling when someone closde to your heart is leaving; that is very heart-wrenching. How can you say goodbye if it is not really a "good" bye? I have to admit that I am not saying goodbye if that person is very much close to me, I always tell them "See you soon." because that is way easier than saying "Goodbye." So if you by any chance heard me saying see you later then that person whom I said see you later are one of the most important people in my life.