If someone talks bad at you~

 “If someone talks bad at you, don’t bother talking back.” –Fanfiction: Living with the famous idiots by sujudork602

                After my last entry (You’re My Endless Love). Someone commented on SJ website, the person said that I must be crazy. Well, I might be, but crazy in a way that I am too positive and believing dreams may come true. As I always say, “BELIEVE and ACHIEVE!” I’m determined; call me desperate, I don’t care.

                I can’t conflict with all of you since we believe in different things, but please respect what I believe. I respect yours so respect me too.^^

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By the way, look at my hair; it’s shorter now^^

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♡ You’re My Endless Love (LEETEUK) (이특)

I never thought I could be this grateful all day long.

Before, I thought you were just the guy I admire the most, but after the dream I had last night I realized that you are really the only man that will make me feel this way. I don’t care about age gap, age is just a number.

It’s been four years now since I became an ELF, I’m eighteen now (nineteen in Korea) and I never had a boyfriend because of what I think of you. You were my role model, the man I really want to live with, and your smile melts my heart. Since the moment I saw you, I really can’t take my eyes of you.

Four years ago, I knew I admire you because of your smile, your face, and your voice. But as time passed by, when I dreamed nothing but you, when you became the reason why I don’t want to accept any suitors and when I become more mature, I realized that this likeness I call turn to love. I can’t find any reason why I feel this way, all I know is that my heart skips a beat when I hear your voice, when I read your tweets, when I read your name, when I watched you (through Music Videos and Shows), and when I scanned your photos online and in your albums.

I believe that the dream I had last night was my first dream of you this year. It has been years since the last LEETEUL~dream. And I thought of that past years that maybe I was just fantasizing about you, that you will be with me, that the dreamland is my only way to be with the man I like until last night. You can’t believe what I dreamed about. It sounds so childish but I really believe in dreams. I believe and I will achieve my dreams. You are my goal and that’s what makes me do my best all the time.

I will do my best for the man I love. (Actually, you’re the only man that I confessed my feelings.)

For you, nothing for me is impossible. I can do whatever it takes just for you.

By the way in my dream last night, you made me the person that every woman envied. You were by my side and where looking at the stars that are shining like your eyes. Then a meteor shower went, and you promise me that we will meet and watch the meteor shower together. When I woke-up I was smiling like a fool, and until this very moment I was imagining your face that is inches away.

Gosh, you made me blush. J

Reality Check

For all KPOP Fans

                There’s going to come a day when we’ve all grown up, had a career, maybe got married and had kid, when we’re all going about our daily routine. Maybe you’re driving to work with the car radio on, or you’re making dinner with the TV on in the lounge. LIFE, AS USUAL.

                And then we hear a name. It’s the name of the person you had a blog dedicated to when you were 16. The person you had posters of up on your bedroom wall, or as your desktop background. The person of that show you used to watch every week, as soon as it came out, or that band you used to love. The person from the cast of a movie that changed your life, or the character who you scrolled through page after page of the fan fiction. You haven’t heard that name in a long time, and it brings everything back. and then the name is followed by three words you thought you’d never hear…

HAS PASSED AWAY.

                And then you put down the potato peeler and lean back against your kitchen bench, or you pull over to the side of the road, then tears are streaming down your face.

                And all over the world, there are people who used to be just like you, with their cheeks and sobs forcing their way out of their throat, because they remember..

Because fandoms never really die out..

We never really move on..

We never really forget..

CREDIT: Kpop Philippines

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                The thought of this statement is really heartbreaking. I am very much aware of the endings but not so soon. I don’t even want to think of this at this kind of moment rather I am positive that they will live as long as they want (though no one can ever do that). All I want is for them to enjoy their life and be happy.

                For now, I am happy that they are alive and still on the scene. I am happy that they are still performing for us, fans. And together with them we can see the future.

                This is too soon to think about this sadness, for now, we keep on fighting together with them.

                I wish that all of us will stay together until the end. FIGHTING! ^^V

Sorry for this nonsense

I just drop by to say Hi.

But this word can never explain my feelings. I’m in love, so in love with the SUPER JUN10R that I want to see them each and every day especially Leader~oppa.

I want to hear those voices again whenever I’m watching the music channel. Those pretty boys that are dancing and owning the stage.

Enough with this nonsense =)

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Well I just want to share my dream last night (THIS IS THE REAL THING) :

I was with my sister and we are at some establishment where we could just get a cup of coffee and to our surprise SUPER JUNIOR came outside and sat beside, behind and in front of us. It was like we are surrounded by Falling Angels. I was beside KYUHYUN and my sister is sitting with EUNHYUK and DONGHAE. Behind us is where you can find SIWON, YESUNG, RYEOWOOK and SHINDONG. In front of us is the real Angel: LEETEUK, HEECHUL and SUNGMIN.

Imagine we are so lucky to be with them, to be sited with these wonder boys. OMG!!!!

When my sister and I was about to leave, they asked us who among us is an Angel (LEETEUK’s FANS CLUB NAME), I was an Angel so I raise my hand. LEETEUK told me that we can meet them again at their office. After that they left.

We rushed to the lavatory and fixed ourselves. I was wearing my A-CHA shirt that time. I was so excited that I can’t even wait to see LEETEUK and the rest. We went to the said office with cakes and stuffs. I knocked and the manager (I think) told us to wait a little while. I ask if LEETEUK is there. He shook his head from left to right, meaning LEETEUK was not around, but he assure us that except from him the rest are there. The thought of not having him around makes me sad but since the rest are still there I was a bit happy. They came and KYUHYUN went to my side and he was like asking me to feed him, so I did. He was quiet and I’m almost out of breath when he looks straight to my eyes.

I tried to call my friend KAT who is a fan of KYUHYUN and ask if I can let her come to this said office, both SJ and KAT agreed. Minutes later, KAT came. I told her to sit beside KYUHYUN, to change seats with me, but KYUHYUN hold my hands and like asking me to stay beside him (Sorry Kat, I didn’t mean to. Well, it was just a dream). KAT tried to give him food, he looks at me and I asked him to eat it, so he did, but it was seen in his expression that he doesn’t want to. (Obsession of a Fan Girl)

It was like there are only 3 people in the room; KAT, KYUHYUN and I. Then, LEETEUK came.

My alarm clock went and that was the end of my dream. I wish I could continue it to find-out what the leader will do next, I tried to sleep a little more, but it won’t come back. I wish my alarm shouldn’t ring. But that’s life.

That’s all for now, bye^^

Love is…

          Well it’s been a while since I post a word here and I miss it.

How are my readers? Well if you asked me, I’m very fine. I just came back to my world and right now I can’t wait to share this quote I read earlier this day. It was about love. Not just love but love as a philosophy and what I believe. It’s just that this quote is strongly a stand my beliefs about love and how to love.

I get this quote from a book (a novel) written by Pamela Simpson: MIRROR, MIRROR (Chapter 3, Page 21 and Line 3&4)

“Children often forbid themselves to think about things that are too painful”

-Janice the Hypnotherapist of Alexandra Wyatt

If you were to ask me what love is, I’ll just say love is undefined. But if you’ll ask to describe love I’ll surely say that love is like a child. You probably are asking me why now. J

Love for me should always know when to stop in order to prevent heartaches. As for me, I always prevent myself from giving in my all. I don’t like to get too much painful so I tried to restrain and focus on how I will forget things that made me so. Like the said quote, “Children often forbid themselves to think about things that are too painful”, they tried to get so many attention to forget what the pain is. By getting so many attention doesn’t mean you get to the point that you want to be the center of attraction, I don’t mean it like that. What I was trying to say is abandon the one person that always drags you down. I know, it’s not that easy but like a child, he/she knows when to let go and how to move-on.

I also believe that in love you should be like a child. A child will loves himself more than anyone else. I don’t mean that you have to be selfish, what I mean is that we should not forget how to love ourselves too. Humans fall in love and become blinded by it, they forget the real them and they do stupid things. I don’t think it is better to give love to someone who doesn’t care about you anymore. A child will turn its back and find someone who can give him/her attention and appreciation him/her needs to feel that he/she is not alone. I don’t love because I just do; I love because I wanted to feel the love that will make me feel complete.

I forbid those emotions that for me are not needed and I forbid moments that are painful enough to remember, because I don’t want to bring back the tears that I shed. I forgive then forget those people who bullied me; I forget them because I want to treasure them as my acquaintances. I forget the grudge because without them I will not be this person. I love like a child that is why I am forgetting those lies and heartaches that someone causes me. I love like a child because I love myself more than I love those certain others. I am always being a child who knows when to give-in and when to let go.

I will love, forgive and forbid myself. Love to be loved. Forgive and be forgiven. And lastly, I’ll forbid myself from hurting others so that they will not hurt me. You must say that I am the kind of person with “me-first-personality”, yes I do. In terms of love I do. Because I told myself that I am not here to be a trash, to be hurt or to be abandon, but I am here to be myself, to be love and to be cared.

If you want to get what you want, you have to give it to yourself first. 

JGoodnightJ