But you were never MINE

The feeling of being in the state of jealousy is the one thing I really wanted to avoid.

I don’t know how did I came to this state but all I know is that I hate it that much.

Why can’t I be free from this feeling?

I envy those girls who can be with you whenever you want to be.

I’m jealous of that one girl who can make you laugh, talk non-sense and drink with you.

I want to be with you too.

I want to make you laugh, talk non-sense and even if I can’t drink, I want my first glass of liquor together with you.

I want to show you the most of you: your smile, your laughter, your tears and the feelings that you always wanted to show, that feeling you can say that you are also human.

That feeling you want to be wanted to feel when you think that the world is against you.

I want to be in your side and make you do those things that you were longing to feel free.

I want to hold your hand when anybody else is avoiding you.

I want to give you a hug when you need someone to warm your cold heart.

I want to be the person you always wanting in your life.

I want you to be with me too.

The problem is…

You were never mine.

You never knew I exist.

You never thought of someone as passionate as me.

You never knew how much I am willing to give everything just to be with you.

But…

Even though you don’t know me YET, you will know me soon.

Even if you never thought of me YET, I know you will think of me soon.

Even if you don’t know how much I can sacrifice YET, I know things will pay off soon.

Though you were never mine…

I will not stop loving you.

I will not give-up on you.

I will stay with you.

And I will always care for you no matter how tough things went; I will never let that beat me.

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Jealousy, you’ll die soon.

I will not let you beat me and be the leader of my emotion!