Out of nowhere

I just did nothing but this today.

MANGA Recommendation

I just finish reading this manga entitled “AFTER SCHOOL NIGHTMARE” (放課後保健室; Houkago Hokenshitsu; The Nurse's Office After School; L'Infirmerie après cours) by Mizushiro Senota. I was really fascinated on the story of this manga, that mystery and all.  You will never expect what happen; there are a lot of things to consider, from the beginning to end.

 

As I was reading the 39th chapter of the final volume, the tenth, I flashback to the very first page of the first volume and it really tests my critical thinking skills. This is one epic mystery manga that will assure you to never stop reading until you reach the last page. There you will realize that it was just what you didn’t expect it to be.

If you want to solve mystery and you are fond of reading supernatural and horror yet romantic manga, then this is one of those manga I recommend you to read. This is surely worth reading if you are confused on something, this might help you to realize what would be the right thing to do or choose.

To the artist and author Mizushiro Senota,

            This is a masterpiece. Congratulation for this superb work. Banzai!

Enjoy reading this manga and you’ll never regret it.

<Credits to the owner of the photos>

See you later...

So, this is not a goodbye...

I made this update for you to know that I am willing to wait until the day we finally meet again. The title explains itself; SEE YOU LATER. I'm not good at saying "Goodbyes" because this type of goodbye for me is very much painful, though I know this will help you  grow as a great man; a person who will be braver.

Whaaa... this is harder than I expected. I thought I can do this as brave as you are fighting back those sadness. I know I don't have to cry, I know it's not necessary to be sad because what you will be doing is for your own good. <sigh> I can't pretend at all when it comes to you. If it were of some members, this would be easy, though it will also be sad, but still it is you who are involved here.

I love you very much that I have to divert my attention to other members because I want to be just perfectly fine when you are gone. I don't want to be a burden for you, because if I will still be missing you, which are not a good way of letting you go for a while. I have to adjust even just until you finally be out again. If I will not do that I might get depress and all. I want to continue as well as you were doing your best in those times that you will not be in our side.

If times get harder don't forget that we are also fighting for you, praying for your health and for your success. We are also fighting for ourselves and remind us that "this too shall pass", trying to be strong and live each day with a smile while thinking of how many days are left to be reunited with you again. We know that someday, we will see a better you and all those sadness that we felt when you were gone will be vanish because it all paid off.

I know this post is just dramatic and full of loneliness, but you can't blame me. <smile>

Only a fangirl will understand a fangirl's heart; true.

Today I am writing not because I am a fangirl, part of me is writing as me. That feeling when someone closde to your heart is leaving; that is very heart-wrenching. How can you say goodbye if it is not really a "good" bye? I have to admit that I am not saying goodbye if that person is very much close to me, I always tell them "See you soon." because that is way easier than saying "Goodbye." So if you by any chance heard me saying see you later then that person whom I said see you later are one of the most important people in my life.

Now I understand

                                  

Now I understand. You have a reason for doing that. Now that you are going to enlist soon maybe you want to assure us, ELFs, most especially Angels, that you are going to be fine. You are doing your best to show us how you put some effort on your health, having that body is a sign of you being healthy. 

Yes, I am guilty in interpreting such things. I even get cofused on whether to like it or dislike it. I’m sorry. I sometimes didn’t think before I act. In times like this now I realized. I realized that you’re still the Leader Leeteuk we knew. Maybe you change physically but you’re still the same Leader who doesn’t want others to worry for him.

I just can’t accept the fact that you are having this mature image. It’s because I was used to the Leeteuk having this Peter Pan image; “A boy who always wants to be a boy and have fun.” In time I know those who dislike your new image, will understand that you have a reason. You always have a reason in choosing whether to do this or not.

         

    

 

I hope that other ELFs, especially Angels, will realized what I had realized; “You are doing this to let us not worry about you when you get enlist. That you are a tough man and you will always be the man who is brave enough to show the world how capble of you in doing things and in showing things.”

From this moment and until we meet again, I’ll be looking forward to your decisions in life, I’ll be supporting you and never to doubt you even a smallest hesitation, I will never do.

 LEETEUK ANGEL LEADER, FIGHTING!!!

<Credits to the photos and gif owner>

Brand new old you...

I miss the old you. I hope that someday you and I will be together. Am I holding on to nothing? Maybe. But how will I not if you and him mess up my life? Damn, I love the both of you even if I’m still confused between you two; he was this and you were that, two different people but the same in my heart. Who among you will I choose if both of you are equal in my heart?

Stupid!

Why can’t it be the two of you instead?

Aigoo~

Possessive

I thought I can share you with anyone, but I realized I can’t. I love you very much that I want you to be mine, only mine. I’m hurting right now, but this was just a game, it won’t come true. I’ll never let you be with someone else. I want you mine.

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Sorry for this post. I just want him mine, though I now I can't own him.

That's the sad reality. L

Random!!!

Maybe it’s better this way. It’s better to be separated with you? Or am I a bit rushing things? What I don’t like is how you perfectly change, having that body? I’m not saying that it’s not what I dislike but at the same time I don’t like it either. Either way, I still don’t have the right to say such things; even in the first place, I still don’t know what I am feeling after those body shots. Sorry, I didn’t mean to upset you or disappoint you about my thoughts of you. This conversation is going nowhere, so I’ll just cut it here. take care still :│