"Sorry SUPER JUNIOR" -FaiHae

<FAIHAE is one of my clanmate. She is a Donghae bias, Fish to be specific.>

“After a long thinking, I would like to apologized and say ‘Sorry to Super Junior’ for blaming and almost hating them for the WGM (We Got Married)/ Blind date thingy, dated: January 6, last Saturday. I was really out of my mind for saying things out of proportion. Super Junior is still humans. They intend to have their life revolve based on how they want it to be. Having their own love life is their right and I as an ELF that they don’t know personally have no right to act like a dictator to them.

While watching Super Junior @MCountdown made me realized these things, without awareness I was crying throughout their Thank You Stage Special.

I’m an ELF. Super Junior is my life as well as ELFs are Super Junior’s life. I PROM15E to BEL13VE until the Sapphire Blue Balloon covers the sky, I won’t stop loving and supporting them.

Whatever makes them happy is not a problem to me. As an ELF, if Super Junior is happy with what they have and do, I will accept it and be happy for them too. J”

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~I understand what it feels. The feeling of being hurt and the guilt that you have when you hate them without having the right is really painful. I am also a fan girl, an ELF and yes this, sometimes I felt. I don’t blame myself for being so possessive over them and being so selfish to the point that I don’t want someone else to have them. But then I suddenly realized I don’t own them and they have to be in love too. But it broke my heart seeing them lovey-dovey with his woman, as a fan girl, I could cry a million tears or at least when my eyes are all dry but what are my tears for if he was happy with that woman, right?

I admit I’m in love with them but I can’t take away their happiness. I remember a quote from someone, “If you love him set him free. If he’s happy with someone then be happy too. If he comes back, then its fate saying it’s your chance to be loved by him.” With those words, I learned that if it’s really for you it will definitely be yours, no matter how long or how hard, if it’s fate then it’s destined.

SUPER JUNIOR doesn’t need SMent.

According to my fellow ELF (MING)

SUPER JUNIOR doesn’t need SMent.

Directors, Stylists, Choreographers, Song Writers, Composers… Who needs them?

Definitely not SUPER JUNIOR.

You need PROOFS?

Here you go…

Stylist

ZHOU MI

Choreographers

EUNHYUK

DONGHAE

SHINDONG

SUNGMIN

Songwriters/ Rap writers

LEETEUK

HENRY

DONGHAE

EUNHYUK

KIBUM

RYEOWOOK

Composers

SUNGMIN

RYEOWOOK

LEETEUK

HENRY

DONGHAE

New Concept Ideas

ZHOU MI

HEECHUL

Director

SHINDONG

Vocal Coach

YESUNG

Producer/ Funds

SIWON

Don’t forget the Maknae… what should KYUHYUN do?

He just sits and checks if anything goes wrong. Acts as the MANAGER.

Albums sales

 ELFs!J

*Leave that to us*

(cr. : MING_sujuology.ph)

Fan Girl is sensitive

I miss this guy

     It’s just that---this day I’m actually heating-up because of those bashing and attacking that my colleagues are doing. You know as a fangirl you should always support your favorite celebrity, but it doesn't mean that you also have to bash others as well. How can you call yourself a fangirl if you are acting so immature about the way showbiz industry do things?

     We all know that showbiz or entertainment have this kind of world---like turning your heads upside down. I mean entertainment are not always the way you want it, there are times that you have to accept the fact that your celebrity is no longer popular. Things aren't permanent. As fangirls we wish that our favorite celebrities are always on the spotlight and we want them to be the main attraction in this kind of business, but we sometimes disappoints ourselves when things are not in the way we want it.

    Yes, personally, I get hurt for every single time that others are bashing with my celebrity. It felt like you want to just run after those people who don’t know how it hurts to be like us, fangirls. I felt bad when things are rough with them. I felt broke when they are being violated but I don’t want to go on and just be an immature fan doing childish things. I’m not a naive fan; I know how things work in this world, in this industry.

     I was not lifting my chair up but it’s just that, we can support them by being who we are. We don’t need to fight each other, fandom to fandom. That’s not what our celebrities want. Look at it this way; our celebrities are so close together, like they hang-out together, chat together and even sweet with each other. While their fans are bashing each other, violating each other’s right and hurting each other. Isn't ironic, our celebrities bond together and we, fans are bashing each other?

    Be more like a fan than a freak. Act like a fan not a gangster. Support them as a fan not to destroy their image. Sometimes what their fans are doing can affect their career. They get antis because of how their fans act. Aren’t you being ashamed of how you always message them of those encouraging words yet looking down on other celebrity? The thought of how you are very careful of how you took care of your idol yet very clumsy on how you treat the other idol.

     Think about it fellow fangirls; we are millions in numbers and all we want is to get those awards that our idols are also wanting. If we really are their fan we should not waste our time doing those childish stuffs, like kids bullying others. We should use our strength, ourselves and our numbers to be part of those award that they want to have. It is not just an achievement for them but also for us. Enough with those fanwars and everything, why don’t we have a cup of tea sometimes, talking about how great each others’ fandom and celebrities we are engaged to, having those friendly activities will make us be very happy about everything.

     To those who are not yet in the fandom world, you might not understand how hard it is but it is full of fan activities. You might think of how weird we are but I personally grew better when I become a part of this fandom world.

     I want to be always in the optimistic side of everything even if things are in its worst. I don’t know why but whenever I think of how fandom world, how being a fangirl help me become me, I felt like I take an ecstasy and was very hyper. You know, I find being a fangirl really the other me, I mean in this fandom world I broadly see things and I widely understands how to become a person that is  really me.

    The person that doesn't know how to lie to herself, the person who is very much open to look at the other part of her being, I become me without having any insecurities because of the fandom world, you guys, made me feel like I belong here, like I am part of a one very big family. Thank you for welcoming me in this family; you are all the colors in my life.

     If we all just be rational, we can still get what we really want for being a fangirl for our celebrity. Like in economics; if you and your friend found a hundred peso bill and he said that you will get a peso and he will get the 99 pesos, if you are a rational thinker you will agree in whatever sharing he will proposed. Rational thinking means that it is okay for you to have whatever as long as you get whatever. The point is “At least I got something” same thing with us, even if it is painful to accept the fact that our celebrities lose, at least they are on the nominees list or at least they are nominated and on the top 10 or whatever their rank is, at least they are on the rank. The most awards that they can get are the support that their fans are giving them. When their fans are there they will continue on shinning and there are always these people that will never let them down. =)

*Sorry for the long post I got there, hope it made sense…*

G . L . E . K . S .

We are MainEuniKatCheRein~

Chen, Rein, Euni, Kat, Maine

Hello there!

   I would like to present to you my ELFsters. (hahaha)

   Okay we are High School friends and I’m proud to say that I made them a fangirl of one fandom, ELF! Some of us are not just an ELF, Chen—VIP and Blackjack and Rein—Boyfriend fan. The rest of us is pure ELF. I would admit that I am a total ELF, I and Kat are great buddies. Kat was the one asking me if we want to buy those ELF stuff. I consider Kat as my closest of them all; we’ve been to the same group clan, text clan everything about Super Junior. We understand each other, even in our fantasy. She knows how to be unreal like me. (hahaha)

   I’m happy that I found this great people in my High School. I merely can’t imagine my life without their color. A High School without their great support to my fangirling activity is a dull senior year to me.

S . K . E . L . G

   Thank you guys, for sharing, baring and laughing for all my craziness over Super Junior, I should have been an outcast without you guys. You guys give me the foundation of true friendship, I mean you all know my story and such, but you brought the new hope that not all the times girls betrayed their friends. I’m grateful because you were all their to listen, to laugh, to sing, to dance with me and to fall in love with the guy that we know that is impossible to meet.

What I got for today...Fangirling Activity

So... today I got all this stuffs Delivered in our house.

My Goodness!!! These are really Great Stuffs! I mean, we saw it on Facebook, then we ordered it and Whoala!!! I got it on hand.

A-CHA T-SHIRT that My Friends and I Bought.....

The actual package

3 A-Cha T-shirt(XS) inside

Leeteuk A-Cha Shirt

Donghae A-Cha Shirt

Kyuhyun A-Cha Shirt

SUPER JUNIOR BIRTHDAY BALLER

We also bought this XD

Opening the package

these are the 3 baller

Kyu, Teuk and Hae

Donghae (shirt&baller), Leeteuk (shirt&baller) & Kyuhyun (shirt&baller)

Donghae, Leetuk and Kyuhyun's signiture on our baller.

Super Junior Leader (Few Stuffs)

Unpacking...

A-Cha (Shirt&Lanyard), Mr. Simple (Lanyard&Mini) B-day Baller

Just so you know, I'm an ANGEL (Leeteuk Leader fan)

These kinds of things will satisfy the needs of being a fangirl. The need to have their bias closer to them even if it is just by having their name around them and all. Aside for having an Album, this is also a way of saying you support them in everything you had, because you’re proud you have it and glad you wear it in public. (Total Fangirl)

Dinner for Tonight

What I had for dinner?

Well I’m not a rice person since I started my diet. Every dinner I just ate some bread and milk but for tonight I ate different food.

This is Puto Bungbong. It is famous in the Philippines every Christmas season. It is sweet and delicious. (I’m eating another piece right now)

This is Barbeque. Smoking, spicy and tender pork meat.

Yum!!!

 Strawberry filling Flakes!

Yum!!!

This is one of my favorite flakes because it has (of course) strawberry filling. The smell and everything makes my appetite awake.

Thanks to Ellie, my college friend, my block mate. She gave me this and now I enjoy eating it.^^

Ahhhhhh...
Done eating it.