Here I am killing my time spending hours of reading. Hoping I would find ease in me. But this war is slowly killing me. How am I suppose to like the reality when all it does is bullying me? How am I suppose to live in fantasy, when happiness is dissolving me? I don't know which fate I would take. The road not taken or the road that had been worn?
I will create the fantasy that I can both be who I want to be and who I don't. Ironically, I don't know which I really am. Will you know someone who is mentally present but physically absent?
I am making things in my head...
Losing my way back to you again...
Falling on the ground...
Limbs are apart...
I hit my head hard...
Torn it to pieces...
But still...
The reason why others get too immature for someone is because they think that being around the circle of other people will make them feel more mature when the truth is they don't really get themselves what they are looking for. What they really get are judgement and those were the things they cannot accept. The truth is, rather than being mature they become narrow-minded.
Yes, everything, everyone changes, if you can't keep up with it, then you don't belong. Well, changes can be good or bad. But changes doesn't mean forgetting the promises you have pledge to for someone. Maybe that is the reason why other people can't accept changing. Because changing comes with forgetting.
Therefore, I think we change but we will not forget the things we made a promise to keep. I still believe that promises are always being kept and not being left. We should always remember that promises are suppose to be meant not half meant.
The first thing that comes to my head after seeing the teaser is a story between two good friends that had separated for a reason since Eunhyuk and Donghae were on the different pages. Though, their lives are still connected somehow.
I am not surprise to hear that Eunhyuk, the guy can sing very well. I was actually taken a back and tell myself that this guy should sing more of this genre since we all know that he is an exceptional rapper. As I was writing this part, I am actually listening to Eunhyuk's part.
Donghae, on the other hand looks so innocent on the video, the eyes are almost crying. I don't know if it is because he was ask to do so, but I am feeling something inside him is empty and lonely. Maybe it was because of the song itself. I will not comment about his voice since we heard him sung the same genre with K.R.Y.
Let's talk about the scene where Eunhyuk was walking and passes by a pretty lady, I know ELFs died after seeing his (I don't know how to describe his smile. But it surely knocks me down. Like my soul just wonder to Neverland) smile. I also envy that girl, I know you felt it to, no need for further explanation.
How about the waiter and Donghae at the café, I was actually laughing on that scene (sorry Donghae oppa. I can't help it. ㅋㅋㅋ). I still see you as a kid not a man at all. And that is what I love about you.
Enough about the MV talks let's now go to the music and lyrics.
Base on my perspective, the song is about their fans. (I am cry. Fans myself. Bit my lower lip. Trying hard not to cry ㅜㅜ_ㅜㅜ) Their fans who had left them. (ㅜ_ㅜ)
As the lyrics go :
*2nd Stanza*
[English]
"You get into a different person’s car, link arms with him
"They don't want to forget the memories that they(fans who left) gave them and even if how many times the boys say 'Don't Cheat!' they can never hold everyone and force them to stay being an ELF."
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The main point is we enjoy this MV, their song and EUNHAE is back! Who cares about this Review ㅋㅋㅋ. Have a Good Day!
Everything that I've said in here is purely base on my perspectives. I don't mind if you criticize, because I am a free man and you are as well we can say what we want, what we think is wrong and right. I write what I see and what I feel.
Before being an ELF I have this awkward aura in me. I am
always the laughing stock because I am fat. My classmates calling me insulting
names but that didn’t stop me from studying hard, I become the cream of the
crop, but it didn’t stop them either to bully me again. I was like why do they
can’t accept me for what I am?
One day
while watching Pops-In-Seoul, This Music Video is playing
COOKING? COOKING! - SUPER JUNIOR H
And I was like, “Oh maybe I need to try harder like the girl in the
video.” So I started Googling the artist and found-out that it was Super Junior-H,
which is said to be the sub-group of a 13-members idol group, Super Junior. I
even watched it again on Youtube and then I notice this song of them called
HAPPINESS, and every single nerves in my body starts crying.
The
feeling of being love is what I am always seeking from others because I feel
like no one loves me, so I cried when I heard it. Then NEORAGO comes along
which also talks about love. Hearing them sing and say “Forever” makes me feel
love. Those were the times I feel like giving up already but then they grab my
hand from letting go on the edge of a cliff; a hand that gives me hope to do my
very best in every way. They taught me what really happiness means. They taught
me what really being love feels. And the feeling of belongingness is what they
make me feel complete.
My mom
told me that I have matured in my decisions in life, that I have become
stronger and that I will never be fool in love, because Super Junior taught me
that I don’t need a physical boyfriend with a shallow love but what I need is
self-esteem, be me and not let other people bring me down. Super Junior makes
me believe that even the impossible dreams are possible to achieve.
Because of them I know what I want to be, what
I need and to appreciate the little things in my life. Even though I am addicted
to them, and wanted to go beyond what I can, and sometimes I wanted to buy them
(if only I am rich), I am contented to what my mom can give me.
Being a
fangirl is like being someone who is willing to dream, accept and achieve the
things, people or the situation given to them. Being a fangirl is not simply
idolizing them but also loving them unconditionally and supporting them
endlessly.
When I become an ELF I met these girls.
I’m happy that I found this great people in my High School. I merely can’t imagine my life without their color. A High School without their great support to my fangirling activity is a dull senior year to me.
I thank them, for sharing, crying and laughing for all my
craziness over Super Junior, I should have been an outcast without this girls.
This girls showed me the foundation of true friendship, I mean they all know my
stories and such, but they brought new hope that I deserve to not to be
betrayed. I’m grateful because they were all their to listen, to laugh, to
sing, to dance with me and to fall in love with SUPER JUNIOR that we know that
is impossible to meet. (But I hope)
These are my ELF treasures:
Now, I
only have to wait for my #RealUNLI moment to arrive right before my eyes. I am
