Yehey!

I am glad that my internet connection is finally working.

For the past days I’ve got nothing to do but to watch TV and to read updates through my phone. I’m so sad without internet connection.

How can I blog?

How can I facebook?

How can I tweet?

How can I tumblr?

And lastly, how can I read those lectures online?

I was so grateful that the connection is doing fine now.

Gosh I have a lot of stuffs to talk about. About my Expo tour in different networks here in the Philippines: GMA and ABS-CBN.

Okay, first of all I want to say HI!!!

(Hahaha, retarded mode again, mian.)

Our trip was held on Nov. 29. It is always sad to say that Filipinos can’t stick to the time being said, I mean Filipino Time.

Yes, the officers told us that we have to at the registration place at exactly 4 o’clock or else we will be left out. So my mom drove me there 5 minutes before 4 o’clock. What did I find there? Well, the gate is still close and there are my colleagues waiting for the guard to open it. And what’s funny is that I found –out that the officers forgot to tell the guards that we will be having our trip and the buss will go there soon. See? Officers should check or at least double check everything first before they plan everything and decided on something.

Enough of that Filipino Time…

Fan Girl Mode 2

I miss you Kim Heechul.

You're unique being makes me want to know you even more.

I hope someday I will have lunch with you.

Aish. I miss your voice, that made me feel like I'm in fairy-tale.

Fan Girl Mode

Just got home...

JungSu: Why are you late? You didn't even phone me. I was worried sick.

Me: Oppah, mianhae. I just got so busy and forgot about the time. Baegopa?

JungSu: Why call me Oppah? Why not Yeobo? *pouts*

Me: *laughs* Aigoo, my JungSu is so handsome. *hugs*

JungSu: Arayo. *laughs*

Me: Kaja, mokko. I'll cook for you.

JungSu: Already did. *peck on the cheek*

Me: *whispers* Yeobo? Saranghae ♥

JungSu: Nado, Saranghae ♥

"There's nothing wrong if you're in love with your Bias. The only wrong thing is when you expect him to love you back."

Sad WISH

As I said a while ago, TVXQ’s WISH makes me feel better. But after seeing this fanmade video I don’t know what happen, I felt sad and now I’m crying. *tears*

I don’t like seeing them cry and that’s why I keep on voting for their win.

*JungSu came*

“What's wrong?”

“Look, your… no this video makes me sad.” *cries even harder*

“*looks at the monitor* You shouldn’t be sad. Those are all great memories.” JungSu wipe those tears

*sigh*

-He really knows what to do

SUPER JUNIOR, THE LAST MAN STANDING!

TVXQ feat. Kyuhyun and Ryeowook

Good day!

   Okay, recently I was addicted to TVXQ’s WISH featuring Kyuhyun and Ryeowook. I don’t know why but every time I listen to this song, it makes me feel better. I can’t close myself to being a CASSIE, though my mother fandom is ELF. It’s just that I really like this song and as I search some of TVXQ’s songs, I fell in love with their voice. KYAAAA!!!

   Not bad to be a CASSIE but still I’m an ELF and no one can change that. I can be whatever I want to be, right? Well, I still don’t have a bias in TVXQ, though I like U-KNOW in KBS POSEIDON, he looks tough, I like.

*here comes JUNGSU’s death glare*

   “Mianhae, Jungsu~oppah, U are still the one! Chunmal! I just find U-KNOW quite my type.”

*JUNGSU walks out*

KYAAA!!! “What should I do???”

BYE!

*runs after him*

I don’t have the reason to get JEALOUS! (but…)

I know you’re not mine, but I hope that someday you’ll be. I know I’m just a fangirl and you might not even know me, but I’ll never stop believing that someday we might cross the same road. I know it’s just for a show, but who knows if you really had developed feelings toward her. I know I don’t have to say this, but I can’t help myself hurting, like a broken glass that even if you try to stick together there’s still a mark. Hurting like I know myself I should not felt. Hurting that I know I don’t have the right to have. Hurting that only I was the one who know. Hurting that no one will ever understand how much it causes me heartache. Hurting but I still can’t help myself having. And lastly, hurting that I know I love you even more.

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Early this morning my friend and I were talking about “CRYING THING”. She then said, “Why did someone cried on SS4? OA!” (She knows how much I love SUPER JUNIOR) “That ‘OA’ is MY BIAS. He cried because even if it is hard for him to perform with lesser members on stage, he had to deal with it because he is the leader and a leader should be strong. He is not OA, OKAY?! I am an ELF and I won’t force you if you don’t like them but please don’t say such things.” I said in mind, “If I were to choose between you and being an ELF, I surely chose being an ELF without hesitation.”

Tears are the best way to say….

Tears aren’t always the best way to show our feelings.

How can it be the best way if you always want to hide it whenever someone is there?

How can you say you show yourself to others when your ashamed of telling them it really hurts.

Tears aren’t the best way to show our feelings.

Tears made us weak and vulnerable, that’s why we are afraid to let it out.

Tears are not made for guys (stereotype) because man should be strong with their emotions (that’s stupid).

Tears are girls’ thing, because we are weak, sensitive and we have high level of emotions. (Stereotype)

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Tears are the best way to feel that we are human.

Tears made us release our tensions in life.

Tears are made because if things went wrong and no one is there, it will show, so you can feel the warmth of being with someone.

Tears are not just for weaklings, it is also for the one who is strong. A strong person is never afraid to show how much he/she wants to cry in front of others.

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A fan cries whenever he sees his IDOL OPPAH crying. Why?

That is her way of saying things may not be better now, but it will be okay when times get right.

That is her way of saying it might be hard for now, but we can get it through.

That is her way of saying, no matter how hard; I will stay here with you.

That is her way of saying, “Oppah, don’t cry. I want to see you smile.”

And lastly, her way of saying, “I love you and I will protect you with these little hands of mine. I will secure you with my little arms and I will be here for you when you felt like world is not your friend.”

A fangirl is not always a crazy stalker and stupid K-pop addict. We are fangirl because we have someone to protect. We have someone to love.

“I am a fangirl because I choose to be and I get strength whenever my IDOL OPPAH is always there to show his love for me.”