I will not make this one complicated but I just want this one as my vent.
I really need it now. Since the day "it" came in, it was then so obvious that I become useless; my existence, words and actions are all nothing else but noise. Do you see how much attention I want to get from you? Do you find it annoying when I came to you and told you about a story I read or a story I wrote? Do you listen to my everyday worry? How about the feelings I get from what had happen, is happening or will happen? You are with me, you physically show me you're there but it is not the same as it was before.
I am not asking much nor wishing for the times to comeback. What I really need now is your understanding, your communication skills, your instincts and you. I want to be as important as you are to me. Well, it can't be now, since you were too busy talking to everyone, when you don't see me hanging and waiting for you to look my way.
Whenever I try to speak out my mind, you would cut me. Why? Are my words too painful? When I don't say a thing you would also notice me? What? Will you listen if I'll be able to give my comments? No! Of course no! It's obvious. When I am pretending not to care, when I am pretending I don't have any thoughts about the matter, I am just trying to not offend you. Trying not to make unnecessary comments that would make you hate me. Even though, I felt like I am still hurting you.
Sorry. I really didn't know where will I be, because even if I go in the middle I think... I would still piss you off.
I really need it now. Since the day "it" came in, it was then so obvious that I become useless; my existence, words and actions are all nothing else but noise. Do you see how much attention I want to get from you? Do you find it annoying when I came to you and told you about a story I read or a story I wrote? Do you listen to my everyday worry? How about the feelings I get from what had happen, is happening or will happen? You are with me, you physically show me you're there but it is not the same as it was before.
I am not asking much nor wishing for the times to comeback. What I really need now is your understanding, your communication skills, your instincts and you. I want to be as important as you are to me. Well, it can't be now, since you were too busy talking to everyone, when you don't see me hanging and waiting for you to look my way.
Whenever I try to speak out my mind, you would cut me. Why? Are my words too painful? When I don't say a thing you would also notice me? What? Will you listen if I'll be able to give my comments? No! Of course no! It's obvious. When I am pretending not to care, when I am pretending I don't have any thoughts about the matter, I am just trying to not offend you. Trying not to make unnecessary comments that would make you hate me. Even though, I felt like I am still hurting you.
Sorry. I really didn't know where will I be, because even if I go in the middle I think... I would still piss you off.
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