In the End...

          We live in a world full of pressures, expectations and discrimination.  We always strive to survive, sometimes, to be someone they want us to be and sometimes we stepped on others to be on top. But at the end of the day, we reflect and ask, "Am I being fair?” fair to others, fair to someone we love and lastly fair to ourselves. Those questions are sometimes hard to answer when you know to yourself that you are not doing what you must do. Be fair to yourself before you become fair to everyone.

            People tend to judge you but do they really know what are you going through?  Do they even look inside you and saw you slowly tearing apart? They don't; most of them only look at the surface, what they see is what they think you are, but what they don't know is what you really are. In life, we chose what would benefit us the most, what is convenient to us and what will make us happy. That is what I sometimes do. I think that what I am doing will not harm anyone around me, I chose it because I want others think that I am more than okay and that no one will  have to worry of what I have been going through.

            Nowadays, a man who is caring, thoughtful and loving is not that rampant. We are seeking for someone so romantic and so sweet that would make us feel that we are the only person in this world and that we are their life. Of course, we are living in the generation of technology and saying "I Love You" is as simple as saying "Hello." It makes me sad to think that, "I Love You" loses its meaning, its real thought.

            I realized that life is really too short to take things for granted. If you can make or say it today, do your best to do it without hesitations, without expectations and without knowing what would happen. Life itself is a gift that we should live for what we can do best, for what we think we do best and for what we have to share to others. Life is not simply living what is lacking, but completing the missing blanks to make us a better person. Challenges will make us fall but we always have the option to stand tall and prove them that we can be someone they don't expect us to be or maybe surpass their expectations.

            Past will always be there and it's not a problem that we sometimes look for it to continue learning and never do the same mistakes again. Past is our guide to live in the future, our teacher to make our mistakes correct and to never fail again.

            Lastly time is everyone’s enemy. It will make you frown when this is not yet the right time or make you surprise in an unexpected time span and will make you regret when time passes you by. Time is precious, if you manage it properly, time will pay off somehow. You will be given all the time you can have in this world, what your duty is, to manage it correctly.

Random #2

So, how was it today? Well, if you ask, the whole day is more than fine. J

It’s Kang-In~oppa’s Birthday by the way. ELFs know him. J

            What really is this post about? Too impatient… This is about my fantasy again; a dream about Super Junior, fangirling mode again so bare with me. J

Here it goes.

            I was actually with my two girl friends, strolling at some resort mall (I guess) and there, out of nowhere Heechul came, shopping for something, so we squeal to death since he is so handsome and looks very masculine. Right there I was left alone because my friends thought that if Heechul was there then the rest might be around somewhere, so we separated, and I being left out with Heechul on the scene. I started stalking him (fangirl’s job: stalking their idols), it’s my chance to see him that close (a stall apart) then I saw these SUJU merchandise shelves (full of posters and other item’s), I didn’t know I was thinking aloud saying, “Are these legal? They are making money out of SJ.”

            Then he noticed, “It’s not, for the sake of your question.” And so I look at him, actually stare at him. He was wearing this sweatshirt and red skinny jeans. I can’t even utter a word after I heard him, “Is he really talking to me?” I thought aloud and again. Then fans noticed him, so we ran together, I didn’t know why but I was actually running with him until we get into a store full of fragrance, I was then distracted to a sweet yet manly smell, then I realize it was him. He was so close that I almost want to hug him. Old couple came and asked us what would be the best fragrance we could offer them (they thought we were the owner of the store). “I’m sorry, but we are also guests’ here.” he said with formality and bought a bottle of whatsoever perfume he randomly grab. Then I followed him to wherever he goes and reach a park type place. I was looking around the place, wondering where would be my friends at this time or if they found the rest.

            “Are you all right? Or are you lost?” with his one brow up. I thought he was pissed so I just walked far from him, seat into a gazebo and there I was trying to reach for my friends, then someone seats beside and patted my head. “Don’t worry. This place is ours. You can’t be lost as long as you’re with the owner.” It was Heechul, with his famous smirk. Then I was thinking, why we are running from everyone. Out of the blue I just wanted to touch his hair, to prove that it is really healthy (Ahahahaha. Weird.) But he never let me but I insist on touching it. His black and soft hair, brush to my finger tips. I feel glad inside (touching an idols hair, one of the best things I could ever experience). Then his hands touched mine to flick it. “Too naughty.”

            We then laugh and talk about nonsense. He is kind-hearted, more like a husband material, and a best friend at the same time. Then Eunhyuk’s parents came with their grandchild, who happens to be Hyuk’s replica. Heechul told me to great them, so we did. I was amazed by Hyuk’s baby, so I ask the elder’s if I can carry the baby and they let me. Heechul looks at me smiling and then talked to Hyuk’s umma. Hyuk’s appa is sharing childhood stories about Hyuk and his wife. Then Eunhyuk came, just a moment after he came, his wife followed. His wife looks familiar, so then I realized that girl was my sister. But she didn’t realize. Then my alarm rings. End of my fantasy.

            I told my sister about it and we were spazzing about SJ again. :”>

*So sorry for being informal Kim Heechul~oppa.*

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