Whatever...

So it's been decided. I see, should I be sad or should I be glad? Tell me, what should be the best feeling that compliments this situation? I have a lot of thoughts in mind about you. I don't know if these thoughts are helpful or quite painful. And I guess I was having this random post again, should I post this to your wall? Maybe no, maybe yes, but either way you'll still sees it somehow. All I wish is that it will reach you.

Some things are very complicated and I don't know which goes first or which would be easier to solve. I guess what makes things complicated is because of how I interpret it. I'm not saying I fail at logic but I'm admitting that sometimes I'm too afraid to know the outcome. I am afraid of accepting the fact that this goes here and that goes somewhere.

I didn't randomly post this to make you confuse for what I was dealing now. All I want is to have at least a simple outlet of these things that I don't understand. I don't need you to solve these for me, but what I need is for you to do great on your duty; the responsibilities that you will soon face. I post this to hide. Hide from the expectations, from the pressure and from my emotions. It might confuse you saying, "What the hell is she up to?" or "What is this stupid crap?"

You can say whatever you wanted to say, you can judge me all you want, but this will never bother me. I'm not blogging for whatever reason I am blogging because I want to express my thoughts not because I wanted to hear your compliments nor your side-comments but just to speak my mind.