Realizing that...

Have you ever realized that the person you thought you'd loved forever will be buried in the past? The thought that, you never planned to bury him/her in the past, it’s just so happen that one day you woke-up in the morning that you don’t have feelings anymore. You don’t know the reasons why it fades or why so sudden you hate him/her. All you know is that the time is up for the both of you.

I had this feeling too. I don’t know why but I know that it is the best for the both of us. Though he gave his all; his time, effort, attention, etc., but there’s something that isn’t right. My mind and heart both of them agreed to stop pretending and told me that I don’t really love him. The thing that I’ve been wondering about is that, I knew that from the start I do love him, but I just can’t explain why does it have to fade, vanished in the past.

I’ll tell you the story behind this situation….

I had this charming guy, who approached me and ask me out. At first I thought he is so nice and he is respectful, which he is, really. We’ve known each other for almost a year or so. Then suddenly he asked me to be his girlfriend, I know I fall from him so that time I say ‘YES’. We do the same thing and he became more affectionate, and he never stops saying he loves me, those words, they’re sweet. That time I know I might not find a better one than him.

Until so sudden, this heart of mine stops beating for him. My head rejected a thought of him. I don’t even remember I miss him or so. I never told him I love him and never been as affectionate as he was. I realized something is wrong; some things are not the same. “Why is this so?” I asked myself. Then my heart suddenly utters the words, “Because I don’t feel anything for him.” My mind added, “as well as I, I don’t even want to think of him nor missed him.” You might be thinking this is silly but that’s the truth, the painful truth.

The only stupidity I did is that, I never tried to tell him those feelings of mine. I keep it until he was the one who break the bond between us. He found someone else. I know it was my fault and I don’t regret what I did, at least he never gets hurt by my words, nor do I when he got a new girl. Rather than hate him and curse her, I told him to take good care of the girl and to the girl as well.

That’s the story behind those feelings. I realized that, you may be sure for him now, but sooner you will realize that it might hurt him/her.

Good Day!