March 24, 2012
February 19, 2012
Sorry, I Love Me =)
Today my past lover wants to get back on me again. It’s been a
while since he last asked me about this kind of thing and I thought everything
about us is doing great. I guess I was wrong. You know people are not getting
tired so easily, I know that but this kind of thing is really annoying. I mean
give me a break!
I remember last night he was trying to talk to me in person and I
just insisted. There are no more issues to talk about. I’ve had enough of him
and it’s been 4 years now, just moved on already!
He wanted an explanation why I don’t want to be with him anymore.
Just so he knows I’ve been doing great on my field and I don’t want him to be
on the way. But he didn’t accept it. That leaves me no choice.
This is what I told him: “You were asking why, I gave you an
answer and yet you still insisted that it wasn’t enough. Here I am being
considerate not to hurt you but you were just so stubborn. Okay. Here’s why.
Because I realized I love myself. I am very in love with myself that I can’t
even let anyone to share my love with. Call me a narcissistic or whatever, I
just can’t find someone whom I can love me more than I love myself.”
See how conceited am I? Well I don’t know how I become like this
but one day I realized I should put myself first and not to be moved with those
romantic, sweet words that a guy mouthing. I mean if girls are all in love with
their self, they will surely be very happy with the guys they will meet because
those guys meet their expectations of loving them.
I thought I could put this here. Hahaha
(Just one of my random)
February 18, 2012
Bread for Dinner???
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| first two bites |
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| eating in front of my Boys |
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| night mode (hehe) |
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| almost done eating >.< (3slicesofbread) |
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| showing off my dimples (done eating) |
February 17, 2012
Super Google Chrome
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| Super Google Chrome |
I have SUPER JUN10R with me whenever i need to find something or whenever I'm confused. They stay with me whenever I'm studying.
J Happy Searching J
February 14, 2012
Meteor Shower
I always wish that someday I will be sitting next to you
while watching the meteor shower.
Isn’t it great to be with someone and witness this kind of
show? This is more romantic than a date on a restaurant or to watch a movie. With
just the two of you sitting together and making wish for each other is my
greatest dream.
I want to be with someone whom I can be with and promise to
be with me through ups and downs.
The one whom I can trust and feel trusted.
I want to be with someone whom I can be myself and see me as I am.
Like in the snapshot, the both of them share a blanket to
warm them. That moment cannot be bought by money. No one can buy those
moments when the two of you are together.
Isn't romantic when someone told you that he wants to watch
shooting stars together with you in the future? This is my favorite line from
this Shounen Ai Animation. That moment when he was saying this in a serious face
with the tone of being possessive is one of the most meaningful and wonderful
feeling a woman could ever feel.
*though it was a Boy Love animation the thought of being in
love and the thought of being with someone is a one of a kind experience*
When you see a hidden heart instead of two pinkies intertwined
is a sign of being in love just like them.
I love it when my friends and I doing the pinky swear,
because I find it believable than just saying promise. When someone is
promising you with such a possessive and stronger tone that means he is willing
to keep that promise. That promise might be a hundred years old before that
someone keep it but the fact that you trust and you have faith in him/her is
your assurance that it will be kept.
*HAPPY ♥ ♥ ♥ DAY*
January 16, 2012
"Sorry SUPER JUNIOR" -FaiHae
<FAIHAE is one of my clanmate. She is a Donghae bias,
Fish to be specific.>
“After a long thinking, I would
like to apologized and say ‘Sorry to Super Junior’ for blaming and almost hating
them for the WGM (We Got Married)/ Blind date thingy, dated: January 6, last Saturday.
I was really out of my mind for saying things out of proportion. Super Junior
is still humans. They intend to have their life revolve based on how they want
it to be. Having their own love life is their right and I as an ELF that they
don’t know personally have no right to act like a dictator to them.
While watching Super Junior
@MCountdown made me realized these things, without awareness I was crying
throughout their Thank You Stage Special.
I’m an ELF. Super Junior is my
life as well as ELFs are Super Junior’s life. I PROM15E to BEL13VE until the
Sapphire Blue Balloon covers the sky, I won’t stop loving and supporting them.
Whatever makes them happy is not
a problem to me. As an ELF, if Super Junior is happy with what they have and
do, I will accept it and be happy for them too. J”
***************
~I understand what it feels. The feeling
of being hurt and the guilt that you have when you hate them without having the
right is really painful. I am also a fan girl, an ELF and yes this, sometimes I
felt. I don’t blame myself for being so possessive over them and being so
selfish to the point that I don’t want someone else to have them. But then I
suddenly realized I don’t own them and they have to be in love too. But it
broke my heart seeing them lovey-dovey with his woman, as a fan girl, I could
cry a million tears or at least when my eyes are all dry but what are my tears
for if he was happy with that woman, right?
I admit I’m in love with them but
I can’t take away their happiness. I remember a quote from someone, “If you
love him set him free. If he’s happy with someone then be happy too. If he
comes back, then its fate saying it’s your chance to be loved by him.” With those
words, I learned that if it’s really for you it will definitely be yours, no
matter how long or how hard, if it’s fate then it’s destined.
January 7, 2012
SUPER JUNIOR doesn’t need SMent.
According to
my fellow ELF (MING)
SUPER JUNIOR
doesn’t need SMent.
Directors,
Stylists, Choreographers, Song Writers, Composers… Who needs them?
Definitely
not SUPER JUNIOR.
You need
PROOFS?
Here you go…
Stylist
ZHOU MI
Choreographers
EUNHYUK
DONGHAE
SHINDONG
SUNGMIN
Songwriters/
Rap writers
LEETEUK
HENRY
DONGHAE
EUNHYUK
KIBUM
RYEOWOOK
Composers
SUNGMIN
RYEOWOOK
LEETEUK
HENRY
DONGHAE
New Concept Ideas
ZHOU MI
HEECHUL
Director
SHINDONG
Vocal Coach
YESUNG
Producer/
Funds
SIWON
Don’t forget
the Maknae… what should KYUHYUN do?
He just sits
and checks if anything goes wrong. Acts as the MANAGER.
Albums sales
ELFs!
*Leave that
to us*
(cr. : MING_sujuology.ph)
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