Daydream

I always wore my best suit in and best face.
I always keep my head up and never let it go down.
I make things happen and never let someone drags me down.
I make time to go through and push harder.

I am a dreamer.
Lost in the fantasy of my own reality.
Lost in the pool of unwanted fantasy.
But also lost in my unbearable truth.

Love can't lie...

There are certain times in life that we are keeping something from someone but is that what we really wanted? Is this our way of ending things? Or we just want to really protect someone to be taken away from us? I don't know whether to have faith and not ask or to be curious at all times.

I was in a situation where I felt like I am being neglected, taken for granted and was being forgotten. I don't know what reason, I don't know what happen, or even the explanation is to hard to understand. But... I am the type who never let go. I will never give up until you told me so. I will stay and hold your hand not until you want me to not stay anymore. I am that person. I am the person who will be by your side even if I feel unwanted but until you say so, that's the time for me to finally move on and see your happiness and freedom. I am that kind of person, I am patient and willing to wait until you came and remind me that you will not come back.

I do cry at times, no many times. I ask a lot of questions, though, answers are nowhere to be found. I think most of the time but it was all wishful thinking. I miss you most of the time but I cannot seem to reach you. I never blame you. In fact, I truly understand you. I will understand you whatever people might say. That is because I love you.

Loving you is the biggest mistake. YES! I totally agree. But it brings me happiness and I hope you feel the same way too. I believed. I am believing. I will believe.

This Time...

Had been long gone and things happen for a reason.

First I got my first official job which I enjoyed very well. I had to interact with lots of people with different personality. It was a fun experienced, though, since it was a first. I may say it had been my turning point.

Second, Congratulations Graduates!
I may not be part of this years graduate but I know I will soon. I will continue on learning with different aspects of life in general, not just inside the four corners of the classroom, but will no sides of the world. I will hop into that stage with pride and honor. For now, I will let these graduates enjoy their diplomas as I continue on surviving and existing in this world.

Third! Who would have expected there is a third topic, though. Well, this is more about my personal life itself. Sounds fun? Yes! Just as this last part is unexpected. Some unexpected things happen in real life too. Like, a knight in shining armor would come and rescue me. More like a fantasy, right? But no. I never expected that at this point in time someone would do such thing. Something that would make your heart flutter and someone that would make you feel special. Very special!

I hope you like this post too.
Thank you for reading this too.

Future?!

It's not about how, when, where or why.
It's not about we but a you and I.
Not about how we stay together.
But how we say goodbye,
When we know that we promise forever.

The futures untold.
This story will never be this bold.