<FAIHAE is one of my clanmate. She is a Donghae bias,
Fish to be specific.>
“After a long thinking, I would
like to apologized and say ‘Sorry to Super Junior’ for blaming and almost hating
them for the WGM (We Got Married)/ Blind date thingy, dated: January 6, last Saturday.
I was really out of my mind for saying things out of proportion. Super Junior
is still humans. They intend to have their life revolve based on how they want
it to be. Having their own love life is their right and I as an ELF that they
don’t know personally have no right to act like a dictator to them.
While watching Super Junior
@MCountdown made me realized these things, without awareness I was crying
throughout their Thank You Stage Special.
I’m an ELF. Super Junior is my
life as well as ELFs are Super Junior’s life. I PROM15E to BEL13VE until the
Sapphire Blue Balloon covers the sky, I won’t stop loving and supporting them.
Whatever makes them happy is not
a problem to me. As an ELF, if Super Junior is happy with what they have and
do, I will accept it and be happy for them too. J”
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~I understand what it feels. The feeling
of being hurt and the guilt that you have when you hate them without having the
right is really painful. I am also a fan girl, an ELF and yes this, sometimes I
felt. I don’t blame myself for being so possessive over them and being so
selfish to the point that I don’t want someone else to have them. But then I
suddenly realized I don’t own them and they have to be in love too. But it
broke my heart seeing them lovey-dovey with his woman, as a fan girl, I could
cry a million tears or at least when my eyes are all dry but what are my tears
for if he was happy with that woman, right?
I admit I’m in love with them but
I can’t take away their happiness. I remember a quote from someone, “If you
love him set him free. If he’s happy with someone then be happy too. If he
comes back, then its fate saying it’s your chance to be loved by him.” With those
words, I learned that if it’s really for you it will definitely be yours, no
matter how long or how hard, if it’s fate then it’s destined.
